My new Hubby and me.
Life in the new
Well I have a new life. I am now a wife. I got married 4 months ago. As the days go by I strive to be a better wife. I need to do some serious work on myself. I wish I had a higher self esteem…I really do…
sigh
Life is so complicated..sometimes i just wish i could have a break from it all. Just broke up with my fiance…which i probsbly should have done a long time ago…but now this other guy likes me and i feel really attracted to him…like there is a pull between the two of us drawing us together in an uncontrolable way…but i don’t wnt to jump into another relationship….but i don’t want to let him go either. what is one to do when faced with such a decision…
new scene
“In a way, I need a change, from this burnout scene. Another time, another town, another everything…”
Yeah, O.A.R. hit that one right on the head…I wan tout of here…my life has reached a new level of stress. I just feel like maybe if I could just dissapear for a while then everything would be okay, but I can’t do that. I am so preoccupied trying to make everyone else happy that I have given up on finding happiness myself. I wish for just five seconds i could be alone…in a world where no one is counting on me or expecting me to fix things for them. I feel like I am just running in circles going no where fast, I take one step forward and two steps back. I just want to walk a straight line for a while and try to collect my thoughts. Trying to balance work, social time, and time with my family is making me CRAZY!! I think if I didn’t work with some really cool people then I would prolly just quit! sigh…okay, now that I feel slightly more calm, I’m going to go before I say anything that I will regret. Just wanna give a shout out to Dustin, Mya, Cassy, and Lisa…you guys are the reason I still go to work! HaHa..well, peace out!
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